why am i sad? hmm... a great question indeed. i have no idea why i'm so depressed now. i mean recently. i think i'm turning psycho soon aye. my mood could have an abrupt change like in seconds? yeah... i could be damn hyper and happy at times and then could suddenly turn into hypo mode and sad until i feel like isolating myself. sigh... engineering is driving me crazy. i'm actually scared of everything, scared of goin to uni, scared of facing the public, scared of talking to ppl, scared of a lot of stuff. There's like career fair every now and then, and i'm also fear of getting a job this summer. i couldn't imagine myself working as an engineer in watever company... it's like time flies soo fast, i cant imagine myself gonna graduate soon and gonna be part of the working society. sigh... i'm currently sitting in front of my bro's pc, as this stupid fortunecity website is bloody hard to connect. i've uploaded my diary ages ago, and now everything went missing in action. dun understand what the heck happened. and yeah, i'm writing this diary and home alone again. well, i'm not that depressed actually being home alone. i feel much better staying home alone than hanging out with friends. gosh, i'm really in deep trouble, i'm not interested in going out anymore, i juz feel like isolating myself or sleep as much as i could. i even thought of not attending lectures anymore. hmm. how? help... i'm in a really really deep shit. :(

22 April 2004 (crazy weather!)

crazy weather! err.. i can experience diff seasons in a week.. sigh.. one day hell warm, one day damn cold. well, it's freezing now... and wet outside. i hate wet weather. luckily christchurch is comparitively "dry".. hehe.. not like dunny..rain and rain and rain. sigh! raining makes me moody and i'll start thinking about silly things. hehe.. i know some of u out there will go "oh no! dun think.. dun be silly"..coz yeah, i'll be really really silly when i start thinking.. i can think of heaps of sad stuff and really cham stuff. my brain quite good hor?? probably i could be director of some tragic movies... haha! another thing about wet and cold weather.. i will sleep a lot.. i slept till around 1pm today. hehe! terrible leh. i promised myself to wake up earlier today coz school gonna start soon, i dun wanna be late for my class, BUT, i slept till 1pm.. hehe! blame it on the weather, not my fault, okie? hmm... i feel fat now. sigh... holiday makes me gain another 2kgs..shit!!! i gotta stop eating junk food and move a lot. yeah.. probably jumping around in the cafe or uni when u see me next time in school. hahaha! dun say i'm crazy, i'm juz trying to move around as much as possible if not i wont get the chance. (coz i'll be sitting in the lecture hall for long hours..) realllly dun feel like goin' to uni. i've been counting the days to my next holiday aye.. phew.. i juz hafta sabar for another two months till i get another 1 week break and then a 2 week break in august. (hope i din count wrongly) well, before the next holiday, i still got a lot of stuff to do.. like assignments, tests... sigh!! well, i shud encourage myself to think positively rite? hmm.. yeah!! i'll work hard and work hard. not gonna give up! (whoa! scare myself.. hehe)..

21 April 2004 (nid more...)

yeah.. i nid more.. nid more TIME! dunno aye, whenever around this time, i think that i dun haf enuff time. sigh.. i haven't finished my assignment (well, my aim is to get it done by friday.. i think i can do it), and i wanna change the outlook of my website (it's sucky now, rite? hmm..), i wanna arrange my mum's recipe file for her, i wanna do a bit of revision for first term before 2nd term starts.. i want... A LOT! and it's wednesday now. how could i get all these done by then? hmm... how ar? shud i juz lower my expectation? well, i had fun for the past two weeks, and i have no regrets on those trips i went to. err.. but did i juz waste all my time? hmm.. probably i shud stay in da lib? HELL NO.. library is not a place for me. i ONLY go to lib when it's a necessity. hehe!! man, i hate library. ppl used to say that you study in library coz you will see other ppl studying hard and then u have the urge to study hard. well, it doesn't work for me... hehe.. i rather study alone in a cosy place with a comfy attire. hehehe!! tat's studying in pjs in my room.. hohoho!!! oh yeah, i juz uploaded photos from hanmer spring trip, and hopefully i could get the dunny photos uploaded by tomolo. okie? gimme some time. i'll change a bit by a bit. oh one more thing on my schedule, i got a few recent photos from chloe ( my so-called sister studying in aus).. tat makes me think of the "sisters" site tat was left "abandoned" for quite some time. i think i hafta spend some time updating that part of my site also.. sigh! more and more stuff have to be handled within these few days.. hmm...

15 April 2004 (i'm BACK!)

hey hey!! piggie's back! yeah man...it's been a long long time since i last updated my site. sorrie about this aye. okay, i hafta tell u guys the reason i've been away for sooo long. hmm.. let's start wit some complaints. hehe.. yeah.. SHIT! 2nd pro aint a nice year aye... loads of homework, tonnes of time spent in uni.. and err.. yeah, i nidd SLEEP!! shit man, tis year i hardly get a nice sleep. sigh... and i miss lepaking around sooooo soooo much.. can u blif that i HAFTA camp in uni on friday nites?!?! unbelievable rite? but well, tat's a FACT! man, i used to staying at home or probably having fun (better if i said having some time to RELAX..) during weekends, but now.. i hardly get to have a break. it's like 7 days a week i've gotta study and hoping i got enuff time to finish up all my assignment.. damn it! okay okay, enuff of complaints as i did actually got some time away from my books these two weeks. well, at the last day of first term, i went to management camp for five days, err.. i dun like this camp cuz i felt soo useless as i reckoned i had no contribution at all to my whole team. and yeah, we were 2nd last from all 12 groups competiting. i felt really really bad aye... well, my mood turned better when i went to hanmer for 4 days.. i completely forgotten about all the sad stuff and relax myself in the warm cosy holiday home we rented.. and we got a chance to see HEAVY snow in hanmer during autumn.. isn't it awesome?! hehehe.. sooo happy to wake up in the morning and see outside covered with snow... juz imagine it.. wow!! faaabuloous!!! ^^ oh yeah, and my bro got baptised last weekend after we came back from hanmer, hehe... may god bless u alwez bro! a few days ago, tat's on monday, i went for a road trip with some cmsa members to dunny, hehe.. i actually enjoyed the whole trip but too bad i was a bit tired after the previous two trips.. hehe! if not, i could be hyper a bit in dunny and get to enjoy myself more, but nvm, at least i went there and had a lil fun there! hehe.. my only regret was tat i dun get a chance to see the yellow eyed penguin... err.. went to dunny 6 years ago, and din get a chance to meet the penguins also..this time also missed out the chance, hopefully next time i will haf the opportunity to meet the penguins la.. oh well, now i'm really exhausted sitting in front of my pc. and juz got a chance to relax and surf net and check my website, feel a bit bad when kini wrote me a msg asking me to update my website.. hehe!! kini, u made me feel bad liao.. hehe! yeah i'll try to spare some time to update my website during these last few days of holiday .. coz i've got photos from the trips and i'm also planning to change the total image of the website.. hehe.. besides my website i still gotta finish up my assignment and get ready to a new term. hehe...okie la... i'm really sleepy liao.. goin' to bed early today. wanna get my battery recharged before starting a war. ^^ take care and god bless!!!

11 February 2004 (bye bye...)

juz finished packing up my stuff. hmm.. yeah, i'm goin' back to nz tomolo nite. there goes my 2 mth hols here in msia. a bit sad leaving this country although i keep on telling ppl around me that nz is better compared with msia, but msia is still my home, really missed msia liao. how ar? goin back to nz meaning that my third year uni is goin' to start real soon. "am i fully prepared?" tis is the question that i frequently asking myself lately. well, the answer to this question is still uncertain. sometimes i think i'm quite excited about goin' back to school and really ready to accept the challenge, but sometimes i'm pretty pessimistic and think that i might fail all my courses this year. this happens when i browsed through my result slips from the previous two years. in intermediate year i've got average A, and 1st pro average B... then does it mean that 2nd pro i'll have average C and so on??? err... meaning that... i couldn't survive 3rd pro. quite scary aye! well, my aim for this year is to get average B still... u might think tat i shud have more confidence in getting better results. but it's juz a hard task for me to increase my confidence. sigh..... whenever i'm extremely confident in a subject, i often get the worst result... err.. why ar??!?! any answer to this??? hehe.. anyway, a new year is gonna start soon.. hope i can do well and i also hope my friends around me, those who need help more than i do, will get better results. oh yeah, and i do hope that everything runs smooth in nz for me and ppl around me! :D looking forward for this brand new year. :P

05 February 2004 (happpy CHAP GOH MEH!!!)

HAPPY CHAP GOH MEH!! last day of cny lor... no more ang pow lor.. no more special income lor.. haha!!! and it's exactly one more week to go back to nz. really fast? i dun think so.. hehe. i've spent 1.5 month in msia and i've spent 3 mths holiday wondering around liao. so nice, and i'm a bit excited of goin' back to nz. hehe... prob i dun wanna stay and rott here, i still prefer school life. dun wanna graduate aye! hehe.. i started packing my stuff today. gosh, i think i've got a lot of stuff to carry over to nz, mainly becoz i'm helping my bro to bring his clothes kua... but nvm, we are not comin back end of this year if i'm lucky enuff to get a job there to fulfill my practical job experience. i really hope that i could get a job there end of this year coz i dun wanna spend a hefty amount of money travelling back here again. the nz dollar is increasing.. sooo kia... besides i also really hope i could get a part time job coz i realized that i couldn't be too free, i must make myself occupied most of the time so tat i will actually make full use of my time and won't take things for granted. :P i had a look on my bday photos today.. gosh, i dun think i wanna look at those photos again. shit u know. i looked sooo damn fat in the photo. like i'm a wrestler or something. aih... why am i so fat??? :( help help!!! well i bet most of u think i'm fat but u guys are too nice enuff to tell me tat im not fat. hmm.. i understand. i know the fact tat i'm fat. :( i'm sad la.. tis year bday is my best bday so far and i looked fat in the photos... wat a pity!!! :'( i'm crying now. so hurt.. i put so much effort on controlling my diet and exercise a lot. and yet i'm still damn fat. help... how i wish i could be slim. :( k la. a bit hypo all of a sudden. i gtg and take some rest. happy chap goh meh again to u ppl!

03 February 2004 (*yawning...*)

*yawn*.. tired tired... dunno why am i so tired now... probably i'm 20 and as i said earlier.. body weaker.. haha!!! well, i had a great time yesterday. for the very first time i had a suprised party with my sisters and we went karaoke together after that. the feeling is so good as i din see some of them for one year. :) i was really happy that they could all make it to celebrate bday with me although i have a sis who's studying in canada couldn't make it to the party. well, it's IMPOSSIBLE for her to appear in da party, i know la.. but she did call me and wish me happy bday. hahhaa!!! soo touched! oh yeah, i got myself a jacket yesterday, i was a bit reluctant to buy the jacket, but after a bit of persuasion i bought the jacket. hehe... u know the reversible jacket is only 90 ringgit, which is almost 30 nz dollars.. gosh, how to get a NZD20++ in NZ??? hahaha... that's wat made me buy the jacket. hmm... overall my bday tis year was quite tiring.. hehe... but i love it so much till i dun wan this to end. hmm.. could i treat everyday as my bday?? i wanna have celebrations everyday, issit possible? hehehe... i gotta start packing up my stuff liao as i'm goin' back to nz real soon, i'm a bit excited over it. haha!! yeah man, then i'll become a study freak. :P

02 February 2004 (HAPPY BDAY!)

HAPPY BDAY TO MEEEE.. HAPPY BDAY TO MEEE... HAPPY BDAY TO PIGGGIEEE... HAPPY BDAY TO MEEE!!!! :D yeah.. it's my bday today. err.. 20 yr old liao. no more teenager, sob sob. shit, i feel like i'm damn old all of a sudden, how? body getting weaker everytime i tot of this. hahahah!!!! hmm... got only one gift so far... still waiting patiently for more gifts. hahaha!! well, i dunno how to celebrate my bday. coz almost every year i celebrated my bday quietly at home. argh.. it's pretty wet out there. bloody!!! the sky cries on my bday..... why wanna cry on my bday? not like it's so cham... blooody!!!! oops. am i crazee or wat? yeah i'm a bit crazee.. i was excited about my bday early tis morning, juz for a while though. i forced everyone to greet me happy bday then i went hypo after tat. haha.. me weird? ;) anyway, a brand new year for me, i got a few aim tis year. i wanna get better results and i wanna get myself a part time job or some business to earn more pocket money so tat i could get a new pc for myself and probably some furniture for my room. hmm yeah..and also i wanna get slimmer!!! shit u know, when i walked on the streets in kl, all girls are damn skinny.. all with nice figures.. i wonder how they have such "model" look.. sigh... i wanna become one of them in the future.. err dun laugh at me ok? i know i'm dreaming, juz let me dream, probably my dreams will come true one day. no one knows! :P ok la... it's almost 1pm, i better get out of here before my bday ends. lemme think wat to wear later. haha.. i'll post some pictures of my gathering with sisters here few days later. actually i took quite a number of photos here in msia, but all using other ppl's camera. and i can't seem to get my photos back.. haha!!! probably they lazy to send over to me. hehe..nvm la... piggie can wait. hmm.. i'm goin' off now. tata!!! happy bday to me!!!! :D (p.s. late gifts are still acceptable)

29 January 2004 (Looong time no c!!!)

HI HI!!! hehe..piggie's back. sorry aye for ignoring my own website for ages. errr.. what have i been doin' ah? lemme think ar. i was sick for quite some time since i arrived in msia, then err.. weather so hot that i dun feel like sitting up here in my living room with the heat tat's gonna kill me any moment... and err... probably juz too lazy to do anything coz cny.. hehe! busy meeting up friends and go shopping. gosh.. it's been one month since i last updated this website, i juz realized .. hehe.. sorrie, have been in holiday mode for ages until i forgot what is the date today. haha!!! 2 more weeks then i'll be back to nz. dun miss me too much ya for those who are 'patiently' waiting for me to go back and those who are here with me. hehe! gosh.. i'm sleepy. dunno why i'm "piggier" since i came back... haha.. probably life is easy and good here. nth much to do except learning some stuff and now i've bought some textbooks, i think i'll start browsing thru my txtbooks so i'll be ready later when school reopens. gotta work harder this year, coz my results getting "shitter" .. hehe!!! pray for me...ok la.. gotta take a nap soon.. and i'll be goin' out for lunch with my high school friends later. take care guys!

31December 2003 (Last day of da year...)

yeah man! last day of the year... happy??? sad??? i dunno aye. hmm... this year past by sooo fast la... cannot take it. probably too many stuff happened. well, i haven't given much thought about wat happened and how i coped with all the problems i faced this year. hehe..terrible hor.... how about u guys out there? i'm in msia now. sorrie for not updating my site for quite some time. it's becoz i've been sick for the past few days, i'm still sick now. and ah..the connection here sucks. so hard to get connected to internet when i'm free. hehe.. and i still got jetlag problem. alwez go to bed around 9pm hehehe.... well oh well... i haven't met my friends here yet. but i contact a few of my sisters, and i felt that something has changed. :( probably ppl change, probably i change also, juz tat i dunno it myself. i'm quite disappointed when they were so busy when i called them up. cannot blame them la, coz they have their own life now, with their own circle of friends... well, i'm meeting some of them tonite for countdown in KL, i hafta be happy enuff liao. rite? dun ask too much.. hehehe! tat's wat i keep reminding myself. oh yeah... piggie cut her hair liao.. no more long long hair.. short hair now. hehe.. i almost cried when my hairdresser cut my hair... hehhe..the straight part is gone now.. left the not so straight and the curly part.. hehe! now my hair a bit cacat.. but nvm la... i dun wanna spend such a hefty amount of money straightening it liao. i'll sabar until when it's really really untidy, then i'll straighten it lo.. hehe.. i kinda think tat probably wavy hair is nice in some way also. coz my hair is a bit wavy .. hehe!! wat do u think??? ok la... MERRY XMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D all da best in the new year ahead. :P

22 December 2003 (PHOTOS!!!)

Hey flans! check out my photo link.. i've got some new photos uploaded in it.. hehehe.. got heaps of piggie's individual photos also.. hahahhaa!!! err.. probably i was a bit crazy back when i went to Queenstown. hehehe... coz i've got two "pig" tails tied.. hahaha!! looked like a typical china girl aye. ;) yeah.. i enjoyed my trip to Queenstown, but i got sick on my way back, now i still got a bit of headache and battery alwez running low. hmm... gotta rest a lot aye coz xmas is coming! dun wanna be sick on xmas.. hehe.. xmas! yeah!!!! ooh yeah..today i juz makan "tang yuan".. i dunno wat issit called in english la..sorrie, it's a kinda food tat ppl normally eat on this day, when the winter comes. hehehe... nice to eat.. YUMMY!!!! hey, anyone out there got new photos??? tell piggie... let piggie upload them and promote to piggie's gang ya! :P till then, i gotta go..pack pack pack... tata!!!

17 December 2003 (counting down...)

one more week before i go back to msia, one more week before christmas... hmm, i finally finished my online photo album. it took me ages to surf for a good online album and has direct link from my homepage. argh.. tough job as i'm a computer idiot. well, i'm now using pbase, it has 10MB of storage for me, and err.. 30 days trial.. but it has the best photo album layout, simple layout! yeah, and i gotta take the 30 days trial risk. well, my bro said he has the album for almost one year and nothing happen.... hmm, so i guess i would like to take the risk as well. who knows rite? hmm, if one day u notice tat u can't see any photos in my photo link, remember to contact me and let me know. k? hehe.. err.. i really think i nid some promotion to my site. sigh, no one visits my site except me myself. sigh....... pls help me to promote mah.. dun tell me it has come to stagnant point, and no one will visit this site anymore. err.. if it's really gonna be liddat, i'll be a dead pig lor.. or probably crying pig. i'll be away for 3 days starting on tomolo as i'm goin' to queenstown with my family. long time din go there liao, i'll bring back heaps of photos kay? so remember to check out my album later!

14 December 2003 (Exactly 10 more days..!!!)

Exactly 10 days and one hour later i'll be arriving at KLIA. So fast... i still can't believe i'm goin' back to msia soo soon.. argh.. dun feel like goin' back all of a sudden. dunno aye.. probably i'm scared of "flying". i hate to "fly" alone, about 1 day no one to talk to. sigh.. and i hate the inflight food. gosh! those food sucks aye! summore when serving inflight food, the air sucks as well, the smell of all sorts of food and drinks mix up together and yuck!!! i'll juz feel like vomitting everytime when ppl are having meals.. haha!! terrible hor me.. yeah, tat's why i normally sleep once i get on the plane and only wake up when i'm about to reach the destination. haha, i'm piggie, so, it's not too difficult to make me fall asleep. hehe..as long as it's not too hot. speaking about "hot".. hell, today's so hot here!!! i cannot take it. this is the first time i experienced a temperature of 34 degree celcius here in Christchurch. argh.. i can't do anything u know. coz it was sooo warm..... my brain won't work if i'm too hot. furthermore, i couldn't open the window of my house coz there was someone nearby burning stuff and the ashes would dirty the house if i open the window.. sigh, so, for the whole afternoon, we were like staying in a heated oven.. and yeah, i turned into a roasted pig! hahahha.... oh yeah, i'm still rearranging the photos in my photo site. hehe.. gimme some time to finish it kay? coz my stupid browser has some problem.. dunno why, it can't seem to update anything. prob the weather made the browser crazy as well???!!! hahaha..

12 December 2003 (Friday AGAIN!)

Friday AGAIN!!! time passes by soo fast man, argh... cannot take it!! well, it's 9.30pm now, and i just realised that i've wasted all my time doin' nothing. gosh! well, i wanted to learn autoCAD, but my room is bloody warm, it's STILL warm now, tat's why i "escaped" to my parents room, using the computer here. probably i should buy a fan. wonder if ppl here use air-con during summer time. haha!! back in msia, my room doesn't have air-con facility also, but i dun hang out in my room as often as i do here, coz i've got another study room with air-con facility. I hardly spend time in my room becoz of the bloody hot weather back home, imagine summer throughout the year... and with no air-con in the room, i really can't understand how the heck i could sleep in my room last time. man, i'm pretty proud of myself. hahaha.... yeah, goin' back in 12 days... gotta sleep in that warm room again, hope i can cope with it la.. probably i might shift my bed to the living rooom, haha, coz there's air-con there. hahaha! i dunno aye. well, i gotta train myself to be "hot weather proof" ... dun wanna be "roasted" piggie. i'm sleepy now. but i still gotta stay awake until 2.30am to pick up my brother from work. hmm.. "working". a word tat is never related to me. i've got no working experience, some ppl said working is fun, some said it's tough and prefer studying. i've got no idea, hence i couldn't voice out my opinion about this issue. what do u think? well, actually, i'm pretty interested in working nowadays, any job will do actually. know why? i feel a bit useless when i realized that i'm 19 and i have no working experience at all. shame of myself leh... sigh!!! yeah, i tried to apply for some engineering manual job here in NZ months ago to fulfill my "Practical Work Experience" requirement, but i've got rejected by all of the companies, about 20 of them i think. useless hor... sigh.... are there any of you out there has no working experience at my age?! join the gang pls. coz i really couldn't find anyone like me now. not even my friends in malaysia. argh.. the more i said the worse i feel about myself.... hmm.. ok ok...... enuff of depressing stuff. hmm..wat should i say??? err... yeah, i'm kinda arranging my photo link now. coz many of you suggested that i should put a hyper link on every photo so that they could have a larger view of that photo. and yeah, so i've accepted my brother's suggestion to use other software to locate my photos there. gimme some time to finish this task ok? hehe.. i'll try my very best to finish it before xmas. oh yeah, i'm goin' to Queenstown next week with my family. looking forward to it. coz me and my family long time din go touring 2gether as my brother was studying in UK for the past two years. so whenever our family went for a trip to somewhere, he wouldn't be there. hehe.. i'm looking forward to goin' to Queenstown next week aye!

11 December 2003 (Back in Action!)

Piggie's back!!!! miss me or not??? sorry aye coz i went MIA (MIA = Missing In Action) for almost a week. well, it's becoz i've been using my bro's laptop all these while after giving my laptop to my dad. and i wanted to reformat the whole laptop so tat it would be completely MY laptop, and, as a computer idiot.. i dunno how to do this reformatting thingy, so i gotta seek help from my busy brother. hehe, so he took two days to completely kao tim my computer. well, after reformatting my pc, my pc had some problem, it automatically shut down a couple of times so i really couldnt' do anything with it. Well, now everything has been fixed. sorrie for all these problems. anyway, how are you guys getting on? Christmas is coming aye! err.. i dun really celebrate Xmas, i only go to mass with my family on Christmas Eve and on Christmas day. i dun exchange presents with my relatives and friends. haha, so i was really surprised that Heather and Elizabeth bought me Xmas presents. thanks mate! hehehe.. guess wat they gave me, hmm... Liz gave me a piggie.. hahaha. and Heather gave me a Pucca doll.. yeah!!! Piggie.. tat's ME!!! and Pucca is my all time fav cartoon character. haha!! i really like my xmas presents a lot. Less than 2 weeks and i'm goin' back to Msia. gosh, i really couldn't believe tat time passes so quickly.. i juz downloaded the autoCAD programme and i haven't even started my first tutorial.. sigh!!! and i hafta help my mum arrange her messy recipe book... running out of time!!! gosh.... anyway, i better stop here again, running out of time, i gotta start learning autoCAD today. tata!!!

05 December 2003 (friday!!!)

Yeah man! it's Friday... but it's juz another ordinary day for me, boring like hell.. woke up damn early again.. and coz it's cloudy today, i did some gardening and then waited for my lunch... i wanted to take a nap after tat, but i was worried that i'll grow fatter and fatter if i continue to sleep like a pig... so, i sat at the living room reading a chinese novel. haha!! CHINESE NOVEL! wow.. it's been a long time since i last read a chinese novel.. well, i know libraries here do have chinese novel.. but err i hardly got the time to borrow them...now is the right time for me to read all these chinese novels.. haha! quite fun actually... hmm beside reading novel, i learn how to play "sim city".. haha!! well, i finally know how to play now, been playing this game for hours, now i'm kinda sick of it leh.... hmm, i also played "sims" but i think i would prefer playing "sims dating" to this "sims"..too bad la, i dun have the game. sigh...it's almost midnite now... normally at this hour on a Friday nite, i would be hanging out with my friends... but not now, i'm sitting at home bored to death. sigh... coz friends tat i normally hang out with went back home and my brother is working like mad nowadays... left me alone. ok ok, i know tat u will say tat i shud learn something and keep myself occupied.. hell yeah! i know tis as well, i told you guys i'm gonna start learning autocad, err.. UNFORTUNATELY, the programme doesn't work in the pc.. and ah i dun have the other autocad programme..so, i really can't do anything. sigh... oh yeah, midnite aye!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH!!!! :D

04 December 2003 (sleeping day)

Sleeping day for me. i woke up at 8am as usual...went to church and walked back home from church again. the same old routine. then i sat at home wondering around doin' nothing. oh yeah, there's something special about today. my brother had an interview with the MEM director, and he got himself a place in the MEM class of 2004.. cool aye?!?! congrats, bro! haha, u gotta chia makan liao, dun escape ya!!! ehehhe. i gotta thank God for helping him. hehehe... well, life is still a bit miserable...that "something" still not yet solved.. i've been thinking a lot last nite, even talked crap with my brother for one hour juz to let myself not think about it. but when i woke up, it's spinning in my head again. why does it have to bother me so much? pls God.. help me!! there's no one in the world i could really talk to, except You.. Help me, God.. :( sigh.. i dun think i'm gonna start my AutoCad learning session today again, no mood at all... i might get heart attack soon.. or probably mentally ill...argh!!!! no mood... i'm sad, depressed, helpless.. think i better leave it like tat. not goin' to launch tis site until i'm fully recovered. dun wanna let ppl see me in this shape.

03 December 2003 (juz another boring day...)

Yeah man, another boring day... but today i woke up pretty early.. walked to church with mum and came home around 10am.. but i did nothing special after tat. slept when i was tired and watched korean drama when i was bored. oh yeah, i shud recommend some dramas to you guys, hehe.. tis is my 2nd korean drama tis summer holiday, well, before tat i watched several other korean dramas as well, but i think i should recommend the one i'm watching now, it's called the "glass shoes". Although i haven't finished watching it, but i think it's the nicest one, not like other korean dramas, their stories are more or less the same, you can even predict the future by watching the first few episodes, kinda sien..hehe, as i haven't finished watching this drama, i couldn't talked much about it, hehe, go watch it when you are free, it's worth spending time watching this long drama... :) i promised myself to start learning AutoCad yesterday, but i ended up trying to be lazy and slept pretty early last nite. well, at least i went to the library and borrowed some AutoCad reference books.. hehe!! well, i'll start tomolo.. i promise. hmm... actually i wasn't really being lazy yesterday, it's tat i've got something in my mind and it keeps bothering me till now. sigh.. not tat i dun wanna share it with other ppl around me, but i dunno how to start with... tis "something" keeps me moody tis few days, and TAT'S why i went to bed earlier last nite, i wanted to keep myself away from this "something"... well, i think i dun wanna talk about it. i just hope everything is ok, runs smoothly, i'll leave it to God... "God, pls help me...!!" you guys pray for me as well, ok? Thanks ya.

01 December 2003 (HOT DAY!!!)

What a warm day.. i cannot take the heat surrounding me now.. argh!! i dun think Mslaysia's weather is as hot as this.. anyway, i FINALLY completed my website. hehe.. i'm quite satisfied with it. but i'll still do summore modification in the future if i happened to know anymore new html stuff. heheh.. well, it's really fun buidling this homepage. i'm soo soo happy now.. i never tot i could build my own website, coz i never interested in computer language, i'm only interested in chatting and err..surfing the net for gossips!! hahaha... tat's me! i'm REALLY REALLY proud of myself this time. i gotta celebrate now! hahaha... well oh well, i've finished building my homepage, and tat also means tat i've completed part of my summer holiday plan! hurray!!! happier now.. hehe.. the next thing i wanna do is to learn some basic Auto Cad. i'll start tomolo then. i'll have 20 more days to finish learning basic Auto Cad before i go back home and start keeping myself busy with my practical work. So, "gambatte" to myself! :D hope everything runs smoothly.. hehe.. if so, tis will be my best holiday ever! okay now, i can feel the heat again, i must "escape" from my warm room..tata!!!

29 November 2003 (can't believe it's Saturday!!)

it's SATURDAY! and i'm sitting at home... well, if u let me go lepak now, i dun have the mood as well, know why?? coz i dunno wassup with me, i suddenly panic over the practical work thingy. err.. there's no point for me to worry, coz i tried my best to get a job here but failed, but i'm still worried. probably it's becoz of the short period of working experience i could get this year, and i'm worried tat i couldn't finish the 120 days working experience requirement.. and probably i'm worried tat i dunno how to write the long long report... all sorts of problems juz pop up. well, when my brain starts spinning, all sorts of problems would appear and ruin my mood straight away, i juz couldn't help it. well, tat's me, i alwez think too much, and have lotsa negative thinking..sigh... help me pls.... well, something happy now, hmm.. i almost finish my homepage now. wrote heaps of stuff, even changed my "background" link and wrote heaps of stuff there. well, tat's ME again, whenever i'm not in a good mood, i can write a lot... hehe.. well, i think i gotta try to finish up this website now.. i'll write more tomolo... tata...

28 November 2003 (boring Friday nite)

hehe..first day writing something here... well, tis site is not completed yet, err.. i'm still thinking hard wat to put in my very first website.. hehe, forgive me la.. coz i din plan properly before i started building tis website. i'm having 3 months holiday now, everyday sitting at home rotting, and knowing tat a lot of ppl know how to build a website, i might as well learn something new since i'm damn free now, rite? hehehe.. well, i dun think my website is cool enuff, i'm still learning. haha, guess wat... i juz realized i have great imagination, i tot of building a real cool website, with animations, and cool sound effects, stuff like tat.. but err.. i end up building tis simple website, but i'm satisfied la.. hehe.. and i won't give up learning more... oh yeah, another thing, my english not tat good, so, no big fancy words here, juz some simple broken english.. haha... typical manglish...see? i'm showing tat i'm patriotic here.. haha.. love malaysia.. :P can u believe it?
and another thing is my homepage might look a bit messy, haha, paiseh la, no experience is like tat, if got any other comment, juz let me know ok? u can leave a msg or email me or sms me or call me or... haha..watever u want la!! i would love to hear your opinion.. thanks!